Clara and I like to keep busy at all times. We do like the odd day to relax, but we almost always fill every weekend and evening with something. This not only means we get to do fun things, see lots of people and study new subjects, it also means occasionally we burn out a little.
One of the things we’ve been asked a lot this year since starting the daily vlogs, is “how do you do it all”. By all, people are referencing both working full time jobs, both studying for new qualifications, parenting, filming our daily lives and keeping a relationship alive. Too be honest, I’ve started to feel like we’re juggling too many balls. Now we are no means as busy as some. I know many manage a 40 hour working week whilst raising multiple children, cooking the perfect meals and still have time to knit bed covers by lamplight, but I can only comment from our way of life.
When too many balls are juggled, you eventually start to drop some and these past few months I’ve felt my grip loosen on some of the balls. I haven’t been the best friend I could be, my sociology paper wasn’t the best one I could submit and I’ve struggled to find the motivation to complete the exercise classes I promised myself I’d start. So why am I sharing this? Well really it’s to maintain the honesty we share on our blog. I want our blog to be as true a reflection as possible of our lives, without airing all our dirty laundry. I want people to realise that sometimes it’s ok to discover you can’t commit to everything and it’s ok to drop some balls every now and then.
I’ve put a plan into action to make sure I stop juggling some of the balls I don’t really need to juggle. I wanted so badly to work on me this year and I’m letting things slip as I’m getting overwhelmed. So I am making my health a priority. I have an operation scheduled for the end of next month and I want to be feeling the best I can before my road to recovery. If that means I don’t press myself to get too physical beforehand, then so be it. I owe it to our little man to not push myself to destruction. I am going to keep up my walking and healthy eating, but not commit to anything strenuous. Which will leave me raring to go with my Spartan training once I’m healed.
Life has a way of testing our limits and everyday I am discovering new limits. But being the person I am, I’m determined to push certain limits and respect others. I want to be the best I can be for both my wife and son and more importantly, myself.