So I’m currently sitting in a private room on the maternity ward looking at my poor baby boy in his incubator, where he is undergoing light therapy for jaundice.
This is the 2nd night of treatment & I don’t know why but I’m finding it extremely tough & upsetting, much more so than last night. I think I may have been in shock yesterday & didn’t take it all in. I think the fact that I had tried to convince myself that we were all going home tonight hasn’t helped. K has also had to leave a little early tonight due to a delivery we are unable to reschedule for a second night. It’s going to be a tough one all round I think.
When you find out you are pregnant for the first time every parent always says to you ‘Oh you don’t know what’s hit you yet’ & I didn’t really understand what that meant but oh boy! This little man has turned my whole world spinning. I can’t quite believe how lucky I am that he’s in my life & I would do anything to take his place right now & I know that K feels exactly the same way.
I’ve just got to keep reminding myself that 75% of babies get jaundice & our little man just needs a little bit of help to get rid of it.
I also wanted to say that K & I really appreciate all the kind words of support on our comments & on Twitter & Facebook.