A couple of days ago I had the most awful day since Monkey was born. He’s been suffering with trapped wind and I couldn’t get him to settle. He was fighting going to sleep and when he did finally drift off it would only be for 30 minutes maximum and then would cry again. He looked like he was in so much discomfort and I could not ease it despite all of my efforts. I felt like it was my fault that he was in so much pain, after all I’m his mum, I should be able to make him feel better when ever he needs me to.
I was so glad to see K when she got home from work and I burst into tears. She was brilliant and made me realise that I am doing my best for Monkey and there wouldn’t be a whole range of products out there designed to help with Colic if all babies could bring up wind. Some things are just out of our hands. I’m sure all mothers go through this at some stage.
Parenting is tough some days and I’m sure I will learn to cope with tearful and grumbly days better, I have only been in the parenting club for just under 6 weeks after all.
Over the years I’ve heard some women talk about how their baby slept through from 6 weeks and was always happy and content. I know now that it was all a front so people didn’t look down at them, but why do that? I’m going to be completely honest when it comes to my experiences, I am a good mum, who has bad days and I’m proud of that.
I’m also so lucky to have such an amazing wife who I can talk to. I had a lovely moment that same day when I woke from a nap to find them dancing in the bedroom to help Monkey relax. Made my heart grow 2 sizes. I have complete admiration to all the single mothers out there. How do they do it?!